Distance in the Heart
Distance in the Heart
In the midst of a crowded room, amidst the hum of voices and the clatter of keyboards, there she was. Bestie, with her gentle smile and the familiar twinkle in her eyes that once brought warmth to every conversation. I couldn't help but steal glances, feeling a pang of longing in my heart.
It had been weeks since I made the difficult decision to distance myself from Bestie, to put an end to our once cherished friendship. Yet, even as I sat in that virtual meeting, surrounded by colleagues and tasks demanding my attention, thoughts of Bestie lingered like an unwelcome guest.
I missed the easy banter we shared, our Whatsapp conversations that stretched into the night or early in the morning. I missed the way Bestie understood me without needing to utter a single word, the comfort of knowing that I had a friend who accepted my flaws and celebrated my strengths and success.
But I also knew that staying away was necessary, a choice made out of self-preservation. Our friendship had started to feel like a tangled web of unspoken expectations and unanswered questions, a source of more pain than joy. And so, with a heavy heart, I had chosen to step back, to create the distance I needed to heal.
I find myself having mixed emotions every time we are in same virtual meeting room. Happy to hear you but said that we were never the same as before. In the middle of discussions, I resisted the urge to reach out, to send a quick message filled with words left unsaid. We used to be like that. Instead, I left the meeting with a sigh, allowing myself a moment of reflection.
Sometimes, I realized, love means letting go. It sometimes means choosing your own well-being over the comfort of familiarity, even when every fiber of your being yearned for connection.
Though the ache of missing Bestie would linger for some time, I found solace in the knowledge that I was finally taking steps towards my own healing.
With a resolve born of self-love, I vowed to cherish the memories we shared while embracing the journey ahead, trusting that in the space they created, new beginnings would eventually take root.
Atty Su

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